Thursday, November 24, 2016

Bullies and Blackmailers

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope you and your family are having a wonderful day! We'll be having about twenty people here today (maybe a few more) and the upside of that is a lot of hands to help in the kitchen!

With that I hope you all have a blessed and Happy Thanksgiving!

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Now I'm taking a moment this morning to post about how I've managed to attract the attention of another bully/blackmailer. This is someone I angered or upset on another website who decided to stalk me on the internet and try to scare me by threatening to "reveal" things about me to my friends on this blog.

After some consideration and discussion with a very wise person I've decided to take away this person's thrill by being up front about some things. For the people who know me from Yahoo Messenger there won't be too many surprises here. I've already shared most of this with you.

For the people who only know me from this blog there may be some surprises and if they upset you or disappoint you then I'm sorry.

In no particular order here goes:

* I am moderating comments for now because once again someone thinks they have a right to use my blog as a weapon to hurt me. To quote no end of basketball players: "Not in my house!"
You don't get to use this space as a place to hurt me. Not now, not ever.

* The bully accuses me of using a friendlier 'voice' on this blog than I do on other places in the net and that's true. Here I always feel like I am talking to my friends and I speak differently to my friends than I do to sometimes hostile strangers on the net. I think I am using my internet voice right now and not my 'speaking to friends' voice.

* It's not the first time I've been accused of being a boy/man. I've been hearing this kind of thing ever since junior high school. I sometimes get compared to Ann Coulter if that helps. I don't think I need to say anything more on this.

* I don't sound like other people and that's true. I am somewhat autistic and with that comes an above average amount of narcissism and an inability to perceive certain emotions. One of my close friends says I am 'emotionally color blind'. It's not that I don't understand the feelings of other people it's just that I don't feel them myself sometimes. Some people think I'm cold that way and maybe I am but it's who I am.

* I do not post a lot about my family anymore and is it any wonder why when there's people out on the net who want to use every bit of information to try to stalk you, track you down, and act as if they have some sort of power over you? I've had one stalker come to the ranch and that was pretty scary. Now that I have children I am going to make clear that the next crazy person who shows up on the ranch to try to prove some insane point is absolutely positively going to get shot. I am not going to risk the safety of my family or myself trying to play any more crazy games with anyone. Period.

* I was raped when I was sixteen. This is not a secret. This being a mostly family friendly blog anymore I don't post on here that my sexual responses are skewed. I get aroused by forceful sex and it's not because I'm into rape it's because I'm a masochist and at some level I don't get aroused unless there's an element of "I deserve this" in the mix. Bluntly, I'm fucked up and I know it. Anyone reading this blog and who knows me off of the blog knows it too. Yes, I've tried therapy and the best advice I received was to not worry about trying to not be this way but to accept that it's part of who I am.

* I do not have a formal college education but I know a lot of things. Prior to joining my family I didn't really have that many resources for education and school for myself was not about education it as just about trying to do enough to graduate and get it over with. After joining my family I was embarrassed that Steve's older daughters were younger than me and they knew so much more than I did. I redid high school as a home school curriculum, worked on my attention problems, and after I got reading glasses found that I liked to read.
Steve has a huge library of political and military books and that's what was there to read and now I like some of that stuff and I also like to read fiction! I NEVER read any fiction growing up and now I read it all the time. I'm right now reading the story Ivanhoe and then will be working my way through a collection of classic stories that the older girls had.
I'm also trying to work on my writing. I write what's on my mind and some of it's offensive to some people (I'm effed up, right?).

* I post on political sites and one in particular I favor called Free Republic. What got me started on the site is that it's all text with no advertising and it's easy to use over a really bad wifi/DSL connection. Yahoo Messenger is mostly useless to me anymore because it's hard to use unless I'm on the computer and no one else is using the net at the same time. I also post on chicken discussion groups, cooking forums, family forums, and breast feeding forums. I had an account on Tumblr which was an outlet for me and that's been ruined by this bully.

I have NOT had active accounts on dating or poly dating sites since I met my family on the Sac Poly Yahoo Group site. About four or five years ago an internet stalker/bully/idiot signed me up for a pile of dating sites and some really disgusting things and all but one of the dating sites ended up cancelling the accounts for me. The one site let me change the password and after I removed all of the content from the profile the account has been inactive ever since.

* I am an autodidact. That means I am self-taught. I learned that from someone on Free Republic...which is part of why I like that site. I've learned a lot there. In the past year or so I've made a serious effort to improve my vocabulary and I intend to use it whether or not it upsets anyone else.

* I'm obsessive compulsive. It is not a disorder to me because I direct it to things where it becomes a gift and not a curse. I like repetitive things like quilting so I make quilts and donate them to people who need them. I've mastered target shooting much to the joy of my husband! I'm also taking up knitting.

I hope none of this bothers any of you but there it is.

And to the person who felt like it was his/her personal mission in life to attack me I'd like to invite you to go to hell. You will not scare me or intimidate me.

- Megan

Sunday, October 30, 2016

+ Seven!!!

My big news is that I am confirmed pregnant with my seventh baby! I'm about six weeks along and due in the middle of June! It's crazy I know but I'm really happy about it and we're going to have at least three infants all at the same time here!


The reality that our nice house isn't big enough has Steve planning a new part of the house to connect the guest house to the main house and that will make it all one big house. It's too late in the season to do anything right now but he is thinking to start on it in the spring. He's agreed to make the extension look just like the rest of the house so it fits in. Our old house in California was kind of bad with it being like four different houses all up against each other and it looked tacky.


To answer the two questions on the last post that look like they're from the same person:


1. Are you going to delete your Yahoo account like so many other poly people are doing right now?


A: Why would I delete my Yahoo account? I changed the password and that should be fine.


2. So if your daughters want to get married at 16 to some older man are you going to be okay with it?


A: Yes, I will. I mean it has to be legal but I'd say yes if that's what they wanted to do. I wish I had done that myself and I wish I knew I could have done it. My parents probably would have been happy to get me out of the house anyway.


I don't know why people get so upset about this kind of thing because it used to be normal in the USA. My great-grandmother was 13 when she married my 16yo great-grandfather in Nebraska and no one thought they were crazy or anything it was just normal. Not every girl should be forced to go to college and have massive college debts that she can't ever pay off. There is NOTHING wrong with wanting to grow up to be a mom and a wife and I'm really not that patient with people who think you're a loser if you want to be old fashioned.


My question now to everyone else is do you think it's wrong for a 16yo girl to get married and start a family if that's what she wants to do? Also, please say when/if you got married and why that was right for you or if you'd do it any other way.


Happy Fall to everyone!


Hugs and Love,


Megan

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Answers to some questions...

Good Morning and Happy Thursday!

I received some questions on email from someone who just wants to go by "J" and here they are:

Do you and your sister wives do any prenatal care outside the home?  
Yes, we have a doctor in town and she's cool with us.
Do you have a OB/Gyn that visits you?  
Yes, the same doctor.
Do you prefer to birth naturally, in your home?  What about your sister wives?  
Yes, we do! I had to have the twins in the hospital but the rest of my kids and all of them (I hope) will be born at home. It's just a lot nicer and there's no social workers to deal with afterwards.

Do you or your sisters use a birthing pool to have your babies?
No. We have a big shower in the master bathroom and that's where we do it because it's tons easier to clean up.

What do you think of unassisted childbirth or orgasmic childbirth?
Hate to say I don't know what that is.
 
(After I replied to him I looked it up here: http://www.unassistedchildbirth.com/ )

Do you and your sisters help each other with the births?  Such as delivering each other’s babies?  Or does Steve get involved here?
The OB/Gyn or sometimes a midwife comes out to the house and everyone else is usually involved too. It's a family thing and the older kids sometimes will get to see a baby born.
 
And Andrew had a question if Steve was trying to give me a baby and the answer as usual is yes! LOL!
 
There you go!
 
Megan

Friday, September 2, 2016

Happy September!!

It's  September again and it's the start of my happy season: Fall!

I love the summer and running around without shoes and getting to wear sun dresses, shorts, and tanks, but fall is my favorite season! It's the start of the time when the evenings have a chill in the air and when I can grab a child and pull him close and it's not too hot to enjoy cuddle time!

Tomorrow is my 26th birthday and while we don't have too much planned I know there will be some lovely surprises in store for me tomorrow and I can't wait!

The season starts off with baby news because Cydne is for sure pregnant again and is due around the end of May next year. Christie QUIT her job after a lot of years and is going to be home 24/7 from now on and I can't tell you all how happy that makes me to have her home! Amy is doing well and has her two month anniversary soon and she's starting to relax a bit and enjoy how we do things our own way back here at the ranch.

My little Laura is wearing glasses now and she is nearsighted with an astigmatism and the eye doctor says it is pretty common for red heads. She's not too bad with the eyesight but was pretty happy to be able to see a lot further than before and spent the last week telling us all about all the things around the ranch!

The election craziness is pretty wild. It's crazy how Donald Trump became a racist and all those awful things only after he said he was running for President. Before that everyone liked him just fine. To me he just seems like an awful lot of people I know who just say what they think without trying to make it sound like something they don't think. That used to be called honesty but people don't like honesty anymore.

Hillary looks sick and it seems like a lot of people are not wanting to think about it. You just look at her in 2008 and look at her now and you see it plain as day. Doesn't mean she's too sick to do the job but she's got something going on and I pray for her healing and for her peace.

People are getting up now and it's time for me to go get breakfast started so I hope you all have a wonderful September and the start of fall!

Hugs!

Megan

Monday, August 22, 2016

August 22, 2016 - Answers to questions!

I'm just going to keep this one simple and answer some questions:

Helene asked about the apples and we put in Mutsu apples and they have to be sprayed with an anti-biotic which is kind of weird but they get a disease that can spread so they get sprayed when they're in fruit.

Anonymous asked: List the ten dumbest things you ever did!

(Just ten? LOL!)

Okay:

1. Jumped off a 60 foot tall bridge into maybe ten feet of water...never again!!

2. Got crazy drunk when I was 15...ugh.

3. I didn't go out with a certain boy when he asked me out...I missed out on a really nice guy!

4. My whole three days working at Starbucks.

5. A thong bikini.

6. Doing a jump on a snowboard...I discovered I can't jump on a snowboard!

7. "Sure, I can cook five turkeys for a family dinner!"

8. Petting a rooster.

9. No, it's not a cute dog, it's a coyote.

10. And my dumbest thing ever: We had a portable milking machine for the cattle and we don't have cattle anymore so I figured it's just like a breast pump, right? Let's just say that it was funny!!!

And bison are TONS easier than cattle! Bison almost totally take care of themselves, they don't need to go in the barns when it's cold, they know not to be out in the open during lightning, and they kill wolves and dogs. We used to have three or four full-time hands on the ranch for the cattle and now we just hire hands when we're bringing them in PLUS we get more per pound on bison than cattle!

Sunday, July 31, 2016

July 31, 2016

Thank you to everyone for their thoughts about the passing of my mom. I really appreciate that so many people who really don't know me that well would care so much! You're all very wonderful people!

We spread my mom's ashes on the mountain up behind our ranch and it was crazy to walk back to the house after that and know that her whole life and who she was is just over. At least she got to see her grandchildren and that's a good thing.

I will admit still having mixed feelings. I wish I were more upset but my mom was more or less not around anymore after she met meth and meth was the love of her life. We had some nice moments the past few years but in the middle of it all she would lie and I think she even stole from me the last time she was at the house. Somewhere along the line I will either let it go or just move on.

At home we've had some changes. Christie is going to be away on work most of the time for a while so I'm actually the senior wife around the house most of the time now and that's weird. Steve is home a lot these days and we also added our helper Amy to the family and she and Steve are working on a baby. Steve is working on that same thing with me and Cydne, too. It won't be long before there's news from someone!

Life at the ranch is good. We sold off some of the bison herd and got $4.55 a pound and that was pretty awesome. We had a good calving season so we're actually up by almost ten head even after the sale so next year looks pretty good, too!

We put in 30 apple trees this week and we're hoping that they make it through the winter and maybe we'll have apples in a few years. Next year we'll put up a deer fence to stop the critters from eating the leaves and fruit before they show up bot for right now they just need to grow.

I got my first dental crown and that was actually nice. I didn't realize how much pain I was in from my tooth until the dentist fixed it. My left side of my mouth had swollen up so it was dentist time and he said it was a bad filling and the good news was it didn't need a root canal. My lesson is to go to the dentist more often.

We've been getting a LOT of contacts from people in the media wanting to do programs on poly people and we've been saying no. We don't want the attention. I guess it's thing with the media right now.

It's been a long time since I really wrote too much and it would be nice to answer any questions if anyone has them. So ask away!

Hope you all had a wonderful July!

Megan

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

My mom died.

I found out this week that my mom died back in March. It was drugs. She was 47 and I can't believe she's gone. I thought she was doing better and was keeping clean but I guess that was just something she was saying to me.