On Wednesday night Christie lost her baby. She had been having some cramping in the morning and said it was probably just something with the baby and then around 4pm it got worse and she asked us to get her to the hospital. When we got there the doctors said she was in the middle of a miscarriage and that it was too late to do anything except take care of Christie. They ended up doing a small surgery to her on Thursday and then she was able to come home last night.
She is doing fine and says she is okay but it has to hurt her to lose the baby. The doctors want her to wait at least three months before she tries again and then they want her not to be breastfeeding because they think the hormones didn't help with the pregnancy. If anyone wants to pray on this that would be really wonderful.
The problems with this blog just don't seem so important now. I decided to keep on writing and I am just going to have to try to ignore some of the things that get posted on here. I will not answer every single question anymore just because I don't have to.
One thing I did get out of this is why the families in our church mostly cut themselves off from the world and why they don't have TV and radio and computers in most of their homes. It seems a lot of people are just convinced that there is no way anyone can be happy being Christian and living a simple life and it is best to just not even try to reach some of them. When someone comes to read this blog and they already decided that I have to be miserable then there is no way they will ever believe that I am happy and I am never going to try to convince anyone different.
I think that is what was getting to me last week was that some people were reading this and wanting to prove how awful my life must be so they think that they have to go over everything I write as if they were on 'CSI' and trying to convict me of a crime. That is how I felt from all that. I am not trying to defend myself here I am just writing and I don't want to have to worry that every little detail will be examined to see if I can be convicted of something.
Someone said I was inconsistent. I am. Deal with it, okay? Just cause I say something one day does not mean that is what I will say another day. Things I thought I knew one day are changed when I learn something that changes what I knew and then I will say something different. This happens a lot so get use to it cause I have to get use to it too.
So I am just going to write. If you want to read it that is up to you.