Saturday, June 20, 2009

Sad news

On Wednesday night Christie lost her baby. She had been having some cramping in the morning and said it was probably just something with the baby and then around 4pm it got worse and she asked us to get her to the hospital. When we got there the doctors said she was in the middle of a miscarriage and that it was too late to do anything except take care of Christie. They ended up doing a small surgery to her on Thursday and then she was able to come home last night.

She is doing fine and says she is okay but it has to hurt her to lose the baby. The doctors want her to wait at least three months before she tries again and then they want her not to be breastfeeding because they think the hormones didn't help with the pregnancy. If anyone wants to pray on this that would be really wonderful.

The problems with this blog just don't seem so important now. I decided to keep on writing and I am just going to have to try to ignore some of the things that get posted on here. I will not answer every single question anymore just because I don't have to.

One thing I did get out of this is why the families in our church mostly cut themselves off from the world and why they don't have TV and radio and computers in most of their homes. It seems a lot of people are just convinced that there is no way anyone can be happy being Christian and living a simple life and it is best to just not even try to reach some of them. When someone comes to read this blog and they already decided that I have to be miserable then there is no way they will ever believe that I am happy and I am never going to try to convince anyone different.

I think that is what was getting to me last week was that some people were reading this and wanting to prove how awful my life must be so they think that they have to go over everything I write as if they were on 'CSI' and trying to convict me of a crime. That is how I felt from all that. I am not trying to defend myself here I am just writing and I don't want to have to worry that every little detail will be examined to see if I can be convicted of something.

Someone said I was inconsistent. I am. Deal with it, okay? Just cause I say something one day does not mean that is what I will say another day. Things I thought I knew one day are changed when I learn something that changes what I knew and then I will say something different. This happens a lot so get use to it cause I have to get use to it too.

So I am just going to write. If you want to read it that is up to you.

10 comments:

  1. i just wanted to say i am sooo sorry to hear that Christie lost her baby and i hope she is all right. i am also glad you decided to keep writing b/c i really enjoy reading your blog.

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  2. nothing is constant in life... the only one that is constant is 'death' ..so before we get to that part in life, juz be happy and content with our life..

    my pray is for Christie to get strong, and get what she wants..

    megan, this is your life.. don't care about others

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  3. I'm so sorry Megan. Thankfully I've never had to go through that ordeal personally, but it's just horrible.

    One good thing though is I'm sure you and especially Christie have a great support system there. None of us knows why these things happen, they just do. All we can do I think is appreciate the support we have and struggle on through and wait for happier times.

    I know things like a blog probably seem silly considering everything you're going through, but I think having a hobby where you can just lose yourself for a bit can be really helpful.

    Hope you are feeling better. Give Christie a hug from all your fans here.

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear about Christie and her loss. My heart breaks for your family!! I'm sending prayers to God for Christie and your family.Psalms 46:10 is such a comfort for me.

    "Be still and know that I am God"

    He is God. He is Powerful. He is Merciful. And most importantly, He is personal! He is with you!

    In Love
    Nikki

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  5. Megan I to wish to give my loving sincerity to Christie especially and to the rest of your family. I know the sorrow you all are going through. It is a shame that so much sorrow is piled up on your family in such short period of time. Through your love for each other I know you all will survive.

    My prayers go out with the rest of us to Christie and your family. I also agree with ChristianFundyMom, "He is God. He is Power. He is merciful. And most of all He is personal!He is with you!"

    Through this latest tragady you have found a clear insight as to what is important and what is not. It may be Gods way of speaking to you and helping you through your own troubles. I don't know. But you have found yourself through it. I am glad for you and thank God for his help.

    Thank you for your decision to continue with your blog. I think it is something you need moreso than we do and we should not judge you for anything you might or not say but just enjoy and be joyfull in your growing.

    God bless you, Christie and the rest of your loved ones.

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  6. I'm adding my prayers for Christie and the rest of the family. I lost several babies and it never was easy on my heart. The support you and the rest give without even thinking will do more than you can imagine to help her during this time. I'm glad to hear the doctor feels it will be okay for her to try again in a few months. What a blessing.

    Glad to hear that you're going to continue the blog for your own enjoyment. Thank you for letting me & others see how wonderful your life is. Some people are the type who only see warts, others (the majority) see the whole person without ever noticing the wart. The wart spotters are the type of people the world could easily do without!!! After all a wart is pretty damn small and easy to over look when you're wanting to get to know the whole person.

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  7. i'll be praying for you and your family. It's a terrible thing to lose a child, especially when a person doesn't get to meet the child... :( My heart goes out to Christie.

    I've been a long time reader of your blog. I'm glad you will continue blogging for yourself, since I believe that's what you aimed to do to begin with. People should feel blessed that you are willing to keep this a public blog and they are able to read it, if they wish. As you said, and I fully agree with you, it's up to you what you write. If someone disagrees with it they don't have to keep reading.

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  8. I haven't posted before but have been reading this blog and I am ever so sorry to hear about Christie's miscarriage.

    regarding happiness, I always feel it is the highest level of patronisation when people feel free to tell you how you are feeling, I have had that before and it makes me very angry indeed.

    Some people live their lives with so much resentment and dissatisfaction though that they find it difficult to believe that others can not be, we must not get angry at them, we must pity them.

    x

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  9. My thoughts are with you and Christie tonight.
    I think Ghandi said "My aim is not to be consistent with my previous statements on a given question, but to be consistent with truth as it may present itself to me at a given moment. The result has been that I have grown from truth to truth”

    You are human. And things change in your life. And you're writing is going to reflect that. There will always be people trying to prove you wrong. Don't let them get you down.

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  10. I am so sorry for your family's lost. I really hope that you keep writing because I enjoy your point of view. I just got married into Poly and I am very happy about it and seeing what you go through helps be to know what to expact. Please feel to email me Rebecca_Lake@yahoo.com

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