I would very much like to know about your birth-family. That would show us a picture larger regarding your choice to enter this kind of family.
I don't have a lot of time for a big response right now but here it is.
My father is in prison and he is there for some good reasons. I won't be visiting him anytime soon and that is because he made my life better by leaving it. My mother is okay but she is so into her own problems that she doesnt have anytime for me and hasn't for a long time. We were never a really great family and when my older brother died when he was 14 and I was 9 that killed any chance my family had of being normal. My brother died from smoking pot and then drinking a bottle of vodka. After he died the arguments at home were pretty constant and the best thing I did was to go be with my friends.
I try not to cuss but my family is fucked up. I know I am effed up from all of that too but I tried to not use my bad family as an excuse to fail. I am dyslexic and school will never be a big deal to me and writing takes me forever. Spell check is my friend so I don't ever text much or IM.
Last year when the FLDS people in Texas had their raid and all I started to learn about poly and at the same time I was wanting to be a mom and then a stay at home mom. I don't want to just be at home by myself so poly really attracts me because it is a family with friends in it. I am not Mormon so when I got my computer for Christmas I got on the net and started in on some sites and Christie invited me to come visit her family since I wanted to know about the life. I ended up babysitting for them on Valentines and then they asked me to join them and live here so here I am. And then Steve asked me to marry him after I realized I never wanted to leave. I was not totally in love with him at the time but it made sense and now I love him so much! I love being with him and if you could see him with the girls and the babies and then with Shari and Christie and me you'd see what an awesome man he is. He is all man like Christie and Shari say and he has so much love.
Christie is my closest friend in the house because Shari is more like an older sister to me and Christie tore me up already with what is in my mind and all. I know my family was bad and I wanted something wonderful and then I also wanted to be a mom and a wife and here I get everything I wanted. I know the poly thing is a big deal to a lot of people but we are really just a big family. Most of what happens here is stuff that happens in every other family and is not a big deal. Steve just has three wives. But that is not bad because we all love each other and it is legally not any different than some guy who has a wife and cheats on her with two other women.
Our marriage is not legal and we never tried to make it legal. So we are breaking no laws. This is just what makes us all happy and this is the happiest I have EVER been.
I hope that explains it for you. Sorry about the cussing but the words in red save me a lot of time trying to describe things.